What made you stop being an addict?

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

How do I seduce a maid for sex?

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

This was February 2019.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

What do you think about Vivian Jenna Wilson's decision to speak out against her father, Elon Musk, in a public interview with NBC News?

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

Have you made a female relative or friend squirt?

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

Can you show pictures of your penis, big or small?

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

Why do good-looking men date homely women?

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

Have you ever followed through being bi-curious?

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

Read that again ☝️

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

Why do subpar women think that they are nines and tens?

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

Why are Democrats at Q so desperate that they keep taking down my links to comments that prove the residents in Ohio have been filing complaints about the Haitians eating the local wildlife from ponds in the local parks? Election interference

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

When do you feel most peaceful ever?

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

What is life without a job?

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

Does pressing a girls boobs hurt?

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

Why do only ugly women like me on Tinder? Is it because I'm an ugly man?

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

Just keep trying

I did it in my administrator's office.

And I can also talk to them now.